After finishing my recent RWRunStreak and having a well earned rest, everything appears to have gone to pot. Some new teeth for BM the fast approaching summer holidays, my imminent return to work, I’ve got a lot on my mind. Despite my need to continue my daily mile, the lack of structure has left me a bit lost again. The lack of sleep is also causing a problem. Time to get some of my LMR wisdom together and make a plan.
Time to get back on my bicycle
Let me take you back to Riding the Bicycle of Change. I’m having a lapse and I’m not scared. It is frustrating and difficult, but I am not frightened of it anymore. I know I have lapsed because the rest that I had and needed on Tuesday has lasted all week. Now I am over tired and struggling to stay focussed. I’m not running, so I am feeling run down and most days I have felt a sadness and wanted to cry. I am still not scared.
Having ridden this bicycle for a while, I know I can pull this back round. Sometimes it is tough riding up hill against a head wind. The monster storm, intent on blowing me off the bicycle for good. But I have learned that bad feelings are not always bad. It is normal and human not to be happy all the time. The trick is to find the confidence to set your face to the wind and push through. Use those feelings to motivate me to push forwards. This is why it is so important to have a plan.
I’m not naturally organised
Part of my issue is my constantly cluttered brain. I often need to order my thoughts to find a solution. This is why I have books of lists everywhere. I need to make an action plan for everything just to stop feeling overwhelmed and stay focussed. For example, once the big monkeys go to school on a morning, I am often left looking at a bomb site in the kitchen. Some days this is demoralising. I start as I always do, the plan already fixed in my mind. Start small. Put away anything that can go in the fridge (butter, milk, etc). Unstack and restack the dishwasher. Collect up all the random pieces of plastic nonsense that the monkeys left behind and distribute in the designated boxes or the crap with no home cupboard. One day I will sort that out properly.
I am not Naturally organised so creating a straight line of thought is helpful. With a brain as cluttered as mine, always full of stories and trying to remember all the stuff I need to remember, I always benefit from a clear and well ordered plan. It is best to set clear aims and objectives and set out how each will be achieved. I will draw on my experience of previous lapses to plan for any difficulties and help me stay focussed. Very important in the event that the monkeys try and side track me by throwing bananas.
Navigating Monkey Madness
Let me break down my current situation, highlight the problems I want to solve and reveal my plan to navigate the Monkey Madness. Firstly, in eight weeks time I return to work. I have a loft full of work clothes that do not currently fit. They almost fit but not comfortably. I need to lose the last few baby pounds so that I can return to work with some confidence.
Secondly, the summer holidays are just about to start. Seven whole weeks refereeing and wrestling monkeys. This is heavily on my mind today as TM had a huge emotional meltdown because I refused to let him use the old pond lining, that is waiting for me to put on gumtree, as a swimming pool. It is full of mud and propped against a wall. I finally got him to agree to a bath, which he would only fill with ice cold water. Then he cried hysterically every time I tried to leave the bathroom to feed BM. Seven weeks of this!!! Seven whole, long weeks. I want to enjoy my time with them, not feel unable to cope. I need to find a daily bit of “me time” to set me up for whatever the days might throw at me.
In summary, the aims and objectives are; find a time for “me time” every day to clear my head and help me cope over the summer, and; lose some weight or inches to feel comfortable and confident on my return to work.
What I have learned from the Runner’s World Run Streak was that a mile a day is achievable and liberating. What I also learned subsequently however, is that I also need a Rest. Therefore, I will run a minimum of a mile, every day apart from one day of rest per week. I will do this until the end of August when I will adjust the plan to accommodate the changes brought by my return to work. I envisage a lapse then as well given my lack of motivation to return.
To ensure the success of any plan it is essential to set some rules and contingencies. If I am ever too tired because of a teething BM or all monkey hell is breaking lose, rearrange the rest day and do not be disappointed. Remain flexible but focussed on achieving the goals when it is possible. No weak excuses.
The usual LMR rules of course apply. Be kind to myself. Drink plenty of water and make myself a Sandwich. When I am tired, keep it slow and steady. Ask for help and have a break from the monkeys. Call in the Summer Survival Team if need be. Focus on being strong capable not just happy. Let’s make this the best summer it can be for me and my monkeys before my time is taken away from them and a new chapter begins.