Anxiety
It’s good to talk

One week ago I was out on my first 5k for a while this week I hit the park again. Despite the runners high last week this week has been a rollercoaster of emotions again. One good run is never enough. If you want to keep the pace then you have to take the rough … [Read more…]
The return of the last runner

Today my blog renewed and I also ran my first 5k for a very long time. I know it has been quiet for a while and I’ll be honest I haven’t been happily frolicking in a Pinterest perfect life. I mean who does? Regardless here I am starting over again. As I ran today I … [Read more…]
Running for my mental health

I don’t think I ever realised how my mental health was being sustained by my running until last year. Getting injured in January 2017 turned my life upside down. What I hadn’t expected however was my life to crumble as a result. It turned out that the short twenty minute miles I was squeezing in … [Read more…]
Stay out of the box

Today I don’t want to do it, today I don’t want to go. But today, of all days, is the day I must. I feel huge and exhausted. I just want to eat things that are bad for me and wallow in self pity. It won’t make me feel better though. In fact it will … [Read more…]
My first run of 2018

Guess what? I’m injured and I’m not joking! Despite everything that went on in the last 12 months my first run was littered with rookie mistakes and now I have shin splints in both legs. Am I going to let it defeat me? Well no I’m not. I’m going to keep being Smart. The best … [Read more…]
Finding freedom in 2018

This morning I found myself stood in my pantry (yes my house is that old) I couldn’t remember why I was there or what I wanted. Post Christmas it was full of disorganised junk and the door had slowly closed behind me. I took a deep breath because I was too tired to get frustrated … [Read more…]
Spaghetti head

I’m a mess. My brain is like a bowl of spaghetti. A big jumbled tangle of thoughts and feelings all leading nowhere. I would love to separate them all out and straighten them one by one. Observe them and understand them. Then chose to keep or discard them. This is what I thought Mindfulness would … [Read more…]