Today I don’t want to do it, today I don’t want to go. But today, of all days, is the day I must. I feel huge and exhausted. I just want to eat things that are bad for me and wallow in self pity. It won’t make me feel better though. In fact it will make me feel much worse. When I feel like this my brain is saying “climb into the box and slowly nail the lid closed”. “Life won’t find you in there.”
Ok, so maybe life won’t find me but what kind of life is that to live? Stuck in the box breathing stale air? So what if I feel like a failure today? I don’t feel like a failure every day. Some days we succeed, some days we make mistakes. But don’t get stuck in the box. Today it’s raining but the air is still fresh. Get dressed in your outdoor clothes so that, when you have chance, you can put on your shoes and step out the door.
Five, ten, fifteen or twenty minutes, any will do. Just peel back the top layer of sadness and let something pure and fresh in. Feel it rush through your brain blowing out some fog. Maybe you will feel infinitely better or maybe just a fraction. Just a few moments out of the fog can keep you going and keep you out of the box.
Don’t let your brain put you in the box
Always remember your brain is a complicated and many layered thing. When all you are hearing is negative then know that this is only one layer. Examine those layers with curiosity like a child. Why do I feel like this? Are they real feelings? Or do you need more water, better food, exercise, support or help? Who is telling you that you are no good? Is it you or the 1001 other voices in there? Don’t Let your brain put you in the box. Observe and challenge. You brain says “you can’t” but I say “you can”.
Get your head out of the box and feel better.